BRUNO'S BIOLOGICAL FAMILY MEETING DAY WITH SURPRISE 4 BRUNO

YEAH QUI VEUT LIRE FRAICHEMENT COMPOSE, TOUT JUSTE EN RAPPEL POUR NOUS NOUS!  JOUR A MONTREAL LA PREMIERE RENCONTRE PREVUE SURPRISE APRES SURPRISE SANS SAVOIR QUE JE RENCONTRERAIS UN FREROT REVE RESTE IRREALISE DEPUIS LE DEBUT MA LONGUE ADOPTION .

- BRUNO DISCOVERS HE'S ADOPTED!
- BRUNO RECEIVES CONTACT FROM SOCIAL SERVICES TO MEET WITH BIOLOGICAL MOM!
- A MEETING DATE IS ARRANGED!
- AT FIRST I WAS INFORMED IT WOULD BE WITH BIOLOGIGICAL MOM, SINCE  BACK THEN THE FATHER COULDN'T COMMIT FOR CAREER REASONS.
- FINALLY, MY MOM AND I ARE INVITED IN A PRIVATE ROOM, GIVEN DETAILS ON HOW WONDERFUL AND EXCITING THIS MOMENT WILL BE!  AFTER ALL, I WAS GOING TO MEET REAL FAMILY FOR MY FIRST TIME!   I STILL COULDNT GET OVER IT, AND I STILL DIDN'T KNOW WHAT MOM LOOKS LIKE, IN MY MIND:  GRAY HAIR,  BROWN EYES,
TIME TO  RECOGNIZE ONE ANOTHER !  FINALLY WE COULD UNITE IN THE SAME ROOM AND AFTER GOING THRU ANOTHER CORRIDOR,  WE FINALLY  CAUGHT OUR VERY GAZE OF ONE ANOTHER!   MY MOM AND I  WERE GREETED BY A BEAUTIFUL REJOYCED  MOTHER WITH STRIKING RESEMBLANCE!   THE TRAITS WERE UNMISTAKABLE!
GREY HAIR, SAME HANDS,  SAME SHAPE EARS IDENTICAL!  PASTA LOVER BY MY MOM ATE PASTA 3 TIMES A DAY!  INNATE COOKING SKILLS  ALSO BY FAMILY.  TALENT IN MUSIC, CREATIVE WRITING, LANGUAGES.  NOW, PART 2, SINCE MET MOM, WHAT HAPPENED NEXT WAS THE WORD'S MOST UNEXPECTED BEAUTIFUL ANSWER TO A LIFELONG WISH!  TO HAVE A LITTLE-BROTHER / TO PLAY WITH!   MY NEWLY MET MOM RETURNED IN THE NEXT ROOM,  AND WHOLE-HEARTEDLY, WALKED OVER WITH A TOTAL SURPRISE VISITOR TO BOTH ME AND MY MOM!   SHE FINALLY INTRODUCES HIM SIMON-PIERRE YOU NOW HAVE A BIG BROTHER!   THIS GORGEOS BOY WALKS OVER LOOKING ME OVER!  WE TOUCHED HANDS, EARS, HAIR, BOTH IMPRESSED WITH ONE ANOTHER!  RESPECTFULLY ASKED IF HE IT WAS OK TO HUG NOW, THIS MOMENT WAS THE MOST UNFORGETTABLE FOR ALL! EVEN MY ADOPTIVE MOM WHEN IT WAS HER TURN TO GET HUGGED,  IT WAS THE NICEST MOMENT MY MOM HAD HAD IN THAT UNEXPECTED MEETING BROUGHT A NEW FAMILY TO GO TO! MY  LITTLE BROTHER IS YEARS LAST TIME, THISTIME   IM GOING   THAT I WOULD REALLY  DOING STUFF TOGETHER SO MUCH TO CATCH TO!  BRUNO       

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- WOW, WHAT A EXCITING MEETING AND FINALLY DISCOVER MY ROOTS,  FOR THE TIME  MY BIOLOGICAL MOTHER HAS LEFT AN OPEN DOOR BEING A CARING FRIEND FOR MY MOM, AND SUPPORTIVE AS A MOTHER !

AVENTURE DE BRUNO DANS LE BLIZZARD ENDOLORI PAR FIEVRES A FLEUR DE PEAU!

Bruno et mere sous une grippe destructrice mere a ete frappee en premier, Lundi passe, et moi Jeudi. 

TOUTE LA SEMAINE PASSEE IMPOSSIBLE DE SORTIR CHERCHER MES MEDICAMENTS DEJA EN RETARD DE 5 JOURS .
 FINALEMENT DIMANCHE SOIR TARD DE PEINE ET DE MISERE JE ME SUIS HABILLE AVEC FIEVRE INTENSE A FLEUR DE PEAU.  DIMANCHE SOIR NOUS AVONS RECU UN FAIBLE BLIZZARD QUI S'ACCENTUA EN SOIREE.  JE ME SURPRIS MOI-MEME A PREMIERE SORTIE , TRES RAPIDEMENT, JE DUS RENTRER POUR ME R'HABILLER D'AVANTAGE, TUQUE GANTS DE SKI ON GELAIT SANS MANTEAU D'HIVER ET MON JACKET VERT N'EST JUSTE BON POUR PROTECTION  DU VENT SANS COUCHES DE LAINE ON ETAIT FAIT!  CA PRENDRERA UN NOUVEAU MANTEAU D'HIVER AVEC ISOLATION EN PLUMES  ET PROTECTION ANTI BLIZZARD PROTEGE BAS AVEC ELASTIQUES QUI FERMENT LE BAS DU VENT GLACIAL QUI S'INFILTRE PAR LE BAS DU JACKET.   LA MARCHE VERS LE CENTRE D'ACHATS DEVINT UNE BATAILLE INFERNALE CONTRE LE VENT BLIZARDAIS QUI POUSSAIT DU NORD CHAQUE PAS ME FIT HESITER POUR NE PAS PERDRE MA TUQUE ET POUR MAINTENIR UN ANGLE FAVORABLE POUR NE PAS GELER!  ET PAR CE FAIT, POUR REPRENDRE EQUILIBRE ET NOUVELLE VISION DE NOTRE INTERMINABLE PROGRES DE JUSTE  QUELQUES MAISONS! 
MA MARCHE HABITUELLE AU CENTRE EST 5 MIN SOIT 1 BLOC ET DEMI, ET CE SOIR EN CONDITIONS BLIZARD AVEC UN DEPLORABLE PROGRES, MEME AVEC UNE COURSE DES DERNIERS 50 METRES!  
EN DERNIER JE ME DOUTAIS AUSSI QUE PLUS RIEN NE SERAIT OUVERT UN DIMANCHE SOIR PRES DES 8 HRES!  FINALEMENT DE LA CHANCE LE IGA MONTRAIT DES SIGNES DE VIE OUVERT ET OCCUPES!
LE RESTE DU CENTRE D'ACHATS ETAIT INACCESSIBLE JUSQU'AU BLOCKBUSTER ET
ENFIN JEAN-COUTU ETAIT OUVERT JUSQU'A 9H, CE QUI ME DONNA ENFIN UN REPIT DE LA TEMPETE ET ME RECHAUFFER A LA TRES PUISSANTE CHAUFFERETTE D'ENTREE!  JE FIS CHEMIN JUSQU'AU COMPTOIR DE PRESCRITIONS, ET A MA GRANDE SURPRISE JE PUS OBTENIR MES RENOUVELLEMENTS 5 JOURS EN RETARD, TARD EN SOIREE ET JE ME SUIS SENTI REJOUI!  J'AI REMERCIE POUR LE SERVICE TARDIF, BEAUCOUP APPRECIE!
 ET ENFIN JE REPENETRAI LA TEMPETE DE NOUVEAU, LE VENT CETTE FOIS ETAIT DE DOS, ET AURAIT DU FACILITER LA TACHE?  - NON, MALHEURSEMENT LE VENT DE DOS EN BLIZARD FAIT UN VORTEX AVEC LA NEIGE ET ELLE RENTRAIT DANS MA TUQUE, POUR Y FONDRE DANS MON COU, DOS, J'AVAIS HATE D'ARRIVER, ET COMME DE RAISON, JE N'ETAIS MEME PAS RENDU MOITIE ROUTE DU CENTRE D'ACHATS, ET LE PREMIER BLOC AVANT DE TOURNER VERS CHESTER!  SUR LE CHEMIN DU RETOUR, A QUELQUES REPRISES J'AI PRESQUE FONCE SUR QUELQUES PIETONS QUI S'EN RETOURNAIENT DANS LA TEMPETE.  CHESTER ARRIVE PENIBLEMENT EN VUE PRESQUE PASSE TOUT DROIT INTERSECTION INVISIBLE.  MARCHE CONTINUE,   CROISE UN PIETON QUI ALLAIT EN SENS OPPOSE.  LE VENT PRIT DE LA VIGUEUR SUR LA DIRECTION OUEST ENFIN DERNIER VIRAGE SUR NOTRE RUE AVEC BONNE QUANTITE DE VENT DE DOS, DES ARRIVE SOUS LE PETIT COIN DE L'ENTREE GAUCHE DU GARAGE , LA NEIGE ME SAUPOUDRA LE VISAGE ET LE COU.  ENFIN, J'OUVRIS LA PORTE ET JE FRAPPAI MES BOTTES SUR LE BORD AVANT DE SAUTER A L'INTERIEUR ET D'Y FERMER LA PORTE SOLIDEMENT LE SILENCE PRESENT DANS LE GARAGE ME RASSURA TOUT BONNEMENT, QU'IL FAIT BON EN DEDANS APRES UNE RANDONNEE DANS LES TEMPETES BLIZARDAISES DE JANVIER! ;-)
J'AI LE GOUT D'ECRIRE DE NOUVEAU,

OUR LIFE IN OTTAWA!

OUR LIFE IN OTTAWA

OUR RELATIONSHIP HAD BEGUN AS COMMON-LAW BASED ON OUT OF CHURCH RELATIONAL COMMITMENT – OUR FINANCIAL OBLIGATIONS, WERE MADE JOINTLY.

WE BEGAN OUR LIVES IN AN OTTAWA APARTMENT, AND LIVED THERE FOR 4-5 YEARS.

BECAUSE JUST STARTING CAREERS W.MIN WAGE FEW WEEKS CONTRACTS.  IT WAS ALREADY QUITE STRESSFUL NOT HAVING STABLE INCOME AND HAVING TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT WE HAD TO QUICKLY MOVE BACK TO GETTING A JOB ASAP SO WE COULD PAY THE RENT THAT WAS DUE IN 2 WEEKS.    

ONCE WE GOT OUR SECOND CHILD THE APARTMENT GOT TOO SMALL FOR EVERYONE.  TOO BAD WE ALWAYS ENJOYED THAT  APARTMENT, IF THEY HAD LARGER 2-3 BEDROOMS WE MAY HAVE STAYED.  

SO, STARTED HOUSE SHOPPING,  ENDED UP DISCOVERING HOUSES IN THE OTTAWA AREA WERE 60-80% MORE EXPENSIVE THAN IN AYLMER AND HULL JUST ACROSS THE RIVER.

 BASED ON THE FACT THAT WE HAD NO MONEY FOR DOWNPAYMENT.

BEGAN LOOKING IN AYLMER AND HULL, THE LOWEST PRICED HOUSE WAS 75.000$ BUT IN COMPARISON TO 239,000 IN OTTAWA, A COST SO HIGH WE COULDN’T EVEN QUALIFY OUR MAX PRE-APPROVED WAS 150,000$ WITH 100,000$ DOWNPAYMENT.

WE WENT  FOR A DRIVE IN DESCHENES PORTION OF AYLMER TO SEE A FEW HOUSES ON SALE.  THIS IS WHERE OUR 1^ST HOUSE WAS LOCATED, AS WELL AS, 

TO OUR GREATEST SURPRISE,  SOMEONE HAD BUILT A REALLY TASTEFUL SWISS HOUSE MADE IN DARK BROWN WOOD BEAMS, JUST LIKE SWISS MONTAIN HOUSES WITH TALL SLOPED ROOFS, A DIRECT COMPARISON TO THE EVER FAMILIAR CUCKOO  HOUSE.

IT WAS ON SALE FOR 179,000$, THAT WAS A DREAM HOUSE IN THE LEAST EXPENSIVE TOWN IN CANADA.   RATS!  29,000$ TOO MUCH!   IT SOLD IN THE FIRST VISIT !

FINALLY, WE DROVE THROUGH ALL THE STREETS IN DESCHENES, FINALLY ARRIVED AT 11 LLOYD SAW THAT THIS HOUSE WAS LARGE ENOUGH FOR EVERYONE, AND THE OUTSIDE WAS TASTEFUL DECORATED WITH 2-TONE SIDINGS TOP HALF EGG-YELLOW, BOTTOM WHITE EVERY WINDOW ADORNED WITH DECORATIVE SHUTTERS IN SHARP BLACK. LEFT WAS A HUGE BRICK CHIMNEY MADE FOR 2 FIREPLACES.  I’VE BEEN DYING FOR A FIREPLACE IN THE LIVING ROOM SINCE MY PARENT’S HOUSE IN MONTREAL DOESN’T HAVE ONE THERE.

 THE BACK YARD WAS HUGE, 200 FT DEEP, AND MATURE CEDAR HEDGE ON THE RIGHT GOING ALL THE WAY TO THE BACK OF THE LOT.

ASKING PRICE : 159,000$ HERE WAS EXCEPTIONAL VALUE FOR VERY REASONABLE PRICE.  BUDGET WISE IT WAS RIGHT ON TRACK WTH OUR MAXIMUM MORTGAGE OF 150,000$ 

DROVE SOME MORE INTO WHYCH WOOD ANOTHER REASONABLE PRICED NEIGHBORHOOD, ONLY DIFFERENCES:  SMALL HOUSES ON MINIMAL YARD SPACE!

WE FOUND 2 OTHER HOUSES ON ARIAL AVE.  ONE ON PLEASANT SLOPED BACK YARD WITH LARGE LEVEL PLATEAU WITH PAVING STONES LARGE SQUARE  PATIO. 

CALLED AGENT FOR THAT HOUSE :  ASKING PRICE WAS 115$ TOLD SOLD FOR 125$ WAS READY TO OFFER 135$  AGENT SAID TOO BAD WE CLOSED TOO SOON, GAVEAGENT OUR NAMES FOR NEXT OFFERERS IF MORTAGAGE FAILS FOR THE 1^ST BUYERS.  FINALLY RECIVED CALL THAT MORTGAGE FOR THE FIRST BUYER WAS ACCEPTED BY BANK.  THAT WAS A BARGAIN!   THAT ONE WAS ALSO SOLD ON FIRST VISIT. AT 30,000$ BELOW MARKET VALUE. 

A 2^ND HOUSE FOR SALE UP THE SAME STREET WHERE THE BARGAIN HOUSE WAS.

THIS ONE WAS LARGE FLAT BUNGALOW WITH A HUGE PINE TREE IN THE FRONT.

HAD A LARGE GLASS PANEL IN THE FRONT GOING TO GROUND LEVEL, THE LIVING ROOM HAD FRENCH DOORS WINDOWED TOP.  THE FLOORS WERE DEEP BURGUNDY RED. 

UPON ENTERING THE LIVING ROOM, I WAS BLOWN OVER BY DISTINCTIVE PRESENCE OF A POLTERGEIST (DEMONIC GHOST), I ALSO NOTICED ADJACENT THE FRENCH DOORS LEADING TO DINING ROOM, THERE WAS LARGE PAINTED STATUE OF A SAINT.  I IMMEDIATELY UNDERSTOOD THAT THIS STATUE WAS PLACED THERE IN THE SPECIFIC PURPOSE OF PROVING POWERFUL PROTECTION AGAINST THIS SPIRITUAL MONSTER.

 I COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT THESE INVISIBLE THINGS ACTUALLY EXIST IN THE SPIRITUAL PLANE.  I WAS STRUCK BY THE FACT THAT THIS WAS THE IDENTICAL FEELING OF THE DARK GHOST THAT ATTACKED ME IN THE PHILIPPINES, 9YRS BEFORE.

 EVEN LORENZA NOTICED SOMETHING AND SHE LOST HER BALANCE BECAUSE THE GHOST PUSHED HER AND HAD NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO!  IT APPEARS THAT THIS POLTERGEIST WAS BEING CONFINED IN THE LIVING ROOM WITH POWERFUL RESTRICTING SPELLS AND THE SAINT STATUE WAS BEING THE FULL-TIME GUARDIAN. 

THIS HOUSE WOULD NEED TO BE  FREED FROM THAT POLTEGEIST BEING HELD PRISONER.  ANOTHER LIKELY POSSIBILITY THE LIVING ROOM IS ACTING AS PORTAL TO THE IN BETWEEN SPIRITUAL WORLD WHERE THE ENTIRE GROUP OF SOULS AWAITS FOR SAFE PATH TO THE LIGHT.  THE POLTERGEIST PURPOSELY BLOCKS SAFE PASSAGE TO THE LIGHT BY SCARING THE PEOPLE TO STAY IN THE FARTHEST PART. 

I DO REMEMBER SEEING A MOVIE WHEN I WAS 8.  BASED ON TRUE STORY CALLED POLTERGEIST WHERE A LITTLE GIRL’S BED ROOM CLOSET TURNED INTO A MAGICAL PORTAL BETWEEN THEIR HOUSE AND AN IN BETWEEN WORLD WHERE LOTS OF PEOPLE LONG DEAD,  WERE HELD CAPTIVE BY A FEARSOME POLTERGEIST. 

THE LITTLE GIRL ALSO FELL INSIDE THIS WORLD AND SHE WAS CHASED BY THE POLTERGEIST FROM ONE END TO THE OTHER.   THE GIRL SCREAMED FOR HER LIFE PARENTS AND SOUNDED DISTANT YET HER VOICE VERY FRIGHTENED,  SHE RAN MORE, AND THE UNEARTHLY GROWL OF THE POLTERGEIST PENETRATED THROUGH THE WALLS OF THE HOUSE.       

  THIS IS A HIGHLY DANGEROUS SITUATION, AS WHOEVER COMES OVER FOR A VISIT,  WILL GET HAUNTED SO VIOLENTLY, IT MAY PROVOKE THE MONSTER IN ATTACKING, AND WE ALREADY KNOW  WHAT HAPPENS THEN, THE VISITOR WILL PERISH. 

AND NOW THAT WE UNCOVERED THIS THREAT, THIS POINTS TO A STRONG POSSIBILITY THAT THE POLTERGEIST MAY HAVE KILLED HUNDREDS VICTIMS IN THE COURSE OF DECADES, AND THAT WOULD LEAVE UNEXPECTEDLY NUMEROUS TRAPPED SOULS  UNABLE TO GET BACK HOME TO THE LIGHT IN PARADISE.  

THIS OPENS A GIANT PRESENCE OF PEOPLE WHO DIED WITHOUT BEING AWARE OF IT.  THEY COME BACK HOMETO WERE THEY WERE LIVING BEFORE THEY DIED; THIS HOUSE.

AND THIS  CONFIRMS THE IMPOSSIBLY STRONG GHOSTLY PRESENCES FROM THE PAST.  A SPIRITUAL GHOST SEER AND HELPER GUIDE COULD BE CALLED IN.

FINALLY, WE BOTH SPONTANEOUSLY DECIDED THIS HOUSE WAS A NO-GO.

LAST THING WE NEED IS GETTING POWERFUL HAUNTINGS FROM A LARGE AMOUNT OF GHOSTS, AND HAVING ONE OR MORE FAMILY MEMBERS FALLING IN THE POLTERGEIST WORLD.  ONLY A HIGHLY EXPERIENCED PERSON WITH COURAGE AND EXTENSIVE EXPOSURE IN TRICKING THE POLTERGEIST TO RUN TO A CORNER TO EAT SOMETHING THROWN  AT IT.  QUICKLY LEAD THE TRAPPED PEOPLE STRAIGHT TO THE LIGHT, AND GET YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS BACK THROUGH THE PORTAL .

ONCE EVERYONE MADE IT TO THE LIGHT, SHUT THE DOOR OF THAT ROOM, LOCK IT AND THOW AWAY THE KEY.   LEAVE THE HOUSE AT YOUR EARLIEST OPPORTUNITY.

 DROVE AROUND SOME MORE WE ENDED UP SEEING NEW DEVELOPMENTS WITH HALF A MILLION DOLLAR HOMES AND UP! BIG ENOUGH FOR PRESIDENTS AND CEO’S.

THESE PRICES WERE REALLY AFFORDABLE BECAUSE SAME HOMES IN OTTAWA WERE 3-5 MILLIONS IN ROCKLAND AND ISLAND PARK (THE HAMPSTEAD OF Ottawa)

FINALLY CALLED THE AGENT FOR THE HOUSE ON 11 LLOYD ST. AND SET UP AN APOINTMENT FOR A 1^ST VISIT. 

TO CONTINUED 

TECHNICALLY WE WEREN’T GOING NOWHERE WITHOUT SERIOUS FINANCIAL SUPPORT.  THAT’S WHERE OUR CRITICAL SITUATION CAME FORWARD TO MY PARENTS WHO WERE IN SLIGHTLY BETTER FINANCIAL MEANS OF PUTTING DOWN THE HUGE DOWN-PAYMENT CONSISTING OF THEIR ENTIRE LIFE SAVINGS AND RETIREMENT FUND. 

BUT CONSIDERING THAT THE KIDS NEEDED MORE SPACE AND NEARBY PARK TO GO PLAY, MY PARENTS DECIDED THAT AT LEAST THIS FIRST OBSTACLE WAS PUSHED ASIDE!

 WE GOT OUR FIRST MORTGAGE EXCLUSIVELY APPROVED AROUND SEVERAL CONDITIONS:  - MY DAD HAD WORKED FOR NATIONAL BANK FOR HIS ENTIRE CAREER AND NOW RETIRED FOR SEVERAL YEARS.  – BOTH MY PARENTS  HAD TO CO-SIGN FOR THE FINANCIAL OBLIGATION TO PAY ANY PAYMENTS IN DEFAULT BY BRUNO AND LORENZA. 

– COLLATERAL ALSO WAS  REQUIRED THE ENTIRE HOUSE VALUE IN MONTREAL VALUED AT 450,000, AND BANK WAS ALLOWED TO TAKE OVER MY PARENTS HOUSE AND SELL IT TO KEEP ALL THE PROCEEDS  IF  THERE WAS MORTAGE FORECLOSURE BY THE BANK.  

THIS HIGHLY CONDITIONAL  FIRST MORTAGE DID GET US WELL VERSED BY OUR 4 YEARS EXCELLENT REFERENCE BY THE LANDLORD IN OTTAWA APARTMENT PAID AROUND 680$ MONTHLY AND MANAGED TO PAY ON TIME. 

NOW OUR NEW MORTGAGE WAS LOWER 550$ AND IT MADE OUR BUDGET MORE BEARABLE FOR OUR FIRST HOUSE!  AND CONSIDERING THAT MOST PEOPLE PAY 1000-1200 MONTHLY FOR MORTGAGES BECAUSE HAVE LITTLE OR MINIMAL DOWNPAYMENT.   THAT’S  HARD TO COME BY UNLESS YOU HAVE AN EXCELLENT PAYING JOB OR CAREER.

AFTER THE FIRST FIVE YEARS WENT BY, WE WERE STILL ENJOYING RECORD LOW MORTGAGE PAYMENTS, AND TO ADD TO THE FACT THAT UPON RENEWAL, MY PARENTS HAD ADDED AN ADDITIONAL  10.000$ TO THE PAYOFF OF THE MORTGAGE.  THIS LOWERED OUR NUMBER OF PAYMENTS LEFT TO PAYOFF THE HOUSE IN LLOYD.

OUR UPDATED BALANCE FOR THE MORTAGAGE WAS A LOW 30,000 LEFT TO PAY.  WERE ALSO INFORMED ABOUT OUR AVAILABILITY FOR UP TO 100,000$ FOR USE IN CREDIT LINE,  AS SECOND MORTGAGE FOR RENOVATIONS OR OTHER PURCHASES.

SO, OUR MORTGAGE RENEWAL WAS MOVED FROM NATIONAL BANK TO CIBC IN DOWE’S LAKE CARLING ST. IN OTTAWA NEAR LORENZA FORMER WORK PLACE.

FINALLY WE OPTED A CREDIT LINE LARGE ENOUGH TO INCLUDE THE MORTAGE RENEWAL  OF 11 LLOYD  30,000$, 55,000$ OF AVAILABLE CREDIT.  SINCE THE 1^ST MORTGAGE WE SUCCEEDED SECURING OUR CREDIT WITH MY PARENT’S BANK, NOW NO LONGER NEEDED THE COLLATERAL ANYMORE .  A BIG RELIEF FOR MY PARENTS.  THE HOUSE VALUES SHOT UP TO 239,000$ FOR OUR AYLMER HOUSE,  FINALLY WE GOT NEWS THAT THE FORMER OWNERS WERE MOVING AND SELLING THEIR FIRST HOME ON 148 VANIER AND SINCE THE HOUSE VALUES WERE NOW BEYOND 210,000$.  BEST PRICE: 197,000$ AND WITH SUBSTANTIAL 40,000 DOWN PAYMENT LEFT OVER FROM  11 LLOYD CREDIT LINE WE FINANCED 157,000$ WHICH WAS A STIFF 1200 MONTHLY BUT IN COMPARISON TO OUR SUPERLOW MONTHLY MORTGAGE FOR THE LAST 6 YRS FOR 11 LLOYD, SELLING PRICE 239,000$  AT 3.25% RECORD LOW  (INCLUDING HOUSE TAXES PUT AWAY AND PAID FOR US.)

THE MOVE  WAS JULY 31, AND WE DECIDEDTO SLOWLY MOVE OUR STUFF FROM 11 LLOYD, OURSELVES WITH THE CAR AND VAN –

IN THE MEANTIME THE RENOVATOR FOR THE NEW HOUSE WAS GOING TO PROCEED IN PAINTING AND GETTING LAST MINUTE REPAIRS IN OUR TO DO LIST.

WHILE THAT GOT DONE, I SLOWLY PACKED OUR STUFF A CARFUL AT A TIME, REALIZED THAT THE AMOUNT OF STORAGE SPACE IN THE NEW HOUSE WAS MINIMAL. HAD TO PUT EVERYTHING DOWNSTAIRS FOR THE TIME BEING, HAD TO FIGURE OUT WHERE WE WOULD PUT IMPORTANT STUFF.

AN UNUSUAL PROBLEM APPEARED WHEN I CALLED OUR INSURANCE TO ADD OUR NEW HOUSE TO OUR OLD HOUSE.   IMMEDIATELY I WAS WARNED THAT I COULDN’T KEEP OUR OLD HOUSE INSURED ANYMORE MAX 30 DAYS FROM THE DATE OF POSSESSION.  THIS MEANS THAT OUR CURRENTLY UNRENOVATED AND NOT READY FOR SALE FOR AT LEAST 90 DAYS.  AND WE DIDN’T REALLY HAVE ANY MOVE IN DATE FOR THE NEW PLACE UNTIL WE WERE READY TO SLEEP OUR FIRST NIGHT WE WERE INTENDING TO REDO PART OF THE NEW HOUSE, AND UNTIL THAT’S DONE YOU CAN’T SLEEP IN THERE YET – WE ENDED UP PUSHING EVEN BEYOND 90 DAYS, BEFORE THE RENOVATOR FINISHED SIGNIFICANT RENOVATION INCLUDING CEDAR DECK, FULL COLOR PAINT ALL ROOMS INCLUDING SAND REFINISH HARDWOOD FLOOR.  

FINALLY CONTACTED AN AGENT TO PUT 11 LLOYD FOR SALE.  EXPLAINED ALL THE RENOVATIONS JUST FRESHLY COMPLETED HOUSE IN MOVE–IN CONDITION.  WITH A DREAMY NEW DECK.  FINALLY BASED ON THE FACTTHAT THE NEIGHBOR DOWNTHE STREET HAD PUT ON SALE FOR 240 AND WAS SMALLER AND LESS FEATURES, OUR FOR 239,000 WOULD STAND OUT AS A BARGAIN!  WE FELT PRETTY CONFIDENT CONSIDERING  THE WORK WAS ALL DONE!

THEN A MONTH LATER THE FINANCIAL CRISIS HIT WORLD WIDE!  WE DIDN’T THINK OF IT AS MUCH AT FIRST, BUT A MONTH LATER ALL THE HOUSE PRICES TUMBLED BY A WHOPPING 40,000$  AND UNEXPECTED EXTENDED THE HOUSE MARKET BE DEAD FOR AT LEAST AN ENTIRE 12 MONTHS WITH AND ABSOLUTELY NO VISITS EVEN DURING OPEN HOUSES. IT WAS HOPELESS TO FIND ANY BUYER NOW.  THE SELLING PRICES DROPPED RIGHT DOWN TO 159THE PRICE WE PAID 6 YRS AGO.  FINALLY A HOUSE RENOVATOR TOOK OFF FROM US GOT THE WORLDS  GREATEST DEAL FOR WHAT ALL THAT HOUSE WITH THE WORK ALREADY DONE,  JUST REDO THE BASEMENT AND THAT HOUSE PROBABLY SOLD FOR $200,000 3-MONTHS AFTER.

WE STARTED OUT AS A DECENT HOUSE CHANGE FOR THE BETTER, TURNED OUT AS  AN UNBELIEVABLY UNLUCKY TURN OF EVENTS, NOW OUR SITUATION WAS CRITICAL,

IN THE FACT THAT NOW WE HAD TO PAY 2 FULL MORTGAGES, BOTH NOW AROUND 1200 AND 1000 MONTHLY MUTIPLY THAT 12 MONTHS:  $26400 OVER 12 MONTHS OF MINIMAL EXPENSE, COULDN’T PROCEED WITH RENOVATIONS IN THE NEW PLACE AT ALL SINCE WE WERE STUCK WITH 11 LLOYD UNABLE TO ALLOCATE PROCEEDS FROM LLOYD TO FINISH THE RENOVATION, AFTER GETTING OUR FINAL OFFER FOR LLOYD WE WERE IN SHOCK AS WE WERE LOSING 26400 OF ACCUMULATED MOTGAGE PAYMENTS, HAD TO PAY THE RENOVATOR GIANT JOB OF 5000$ IN LLOYD.  AND WE SURVIVED ON MAXING OUT OUR CREDITCARDS I HAD GOTTEN AN INCREASE UP TO 12,700$, 10,282$ STIFF 300 MIN. PAYMENT,  150$ MONTHLY WERE INTEREST 

FINAL AMOUNT LEFT FROM THE LOSING SALE OF  155.000-95,000 TO PAYOFF THE MAXED OUT CREDIT LINE AND REMAINING MORTGAGE FOR 11 LLOYD.   THIS AMOUNT INCLUDES 50,000 DOWN PAYMENT FOR THE MORTGAGE OF 148 VANIER THAT WAS USED ON THE CREDITLINE – AFTER THE FINAL PROCEEDS WERE PAID OUT MY PARENTS RECOVERED  A SMALL PORTION OF THE TOTAL AMOUNT INITIALLY INVESTED  IT WAS CLOSE TO 120,000 AFTER THE FINAL LUMP SUM PAYMENT TO THE MORTAGE OF 10,000-20,000  

  FINAL BALANCE PAID BY MY PARENT’S FROM ORIGINAL 110,000 IN DOWN PAYMENTS  48,000 LEFT, WITH A PRESENTLY LOCKED IN 50,000 DOWN PAYMENT FOR 148 VANIER MORTGAGE.   AND CURRENTLY, HOUSE VALUES FOR OLDER DESIGN LOTS, CAN’T BE CONVERTED TO HOUSING DEVELOPMENT.  IF LUCKY MAY HAVE TO SACRIFICE BELOW 150$ MY PARENT’S 50,000 DOWNPAYMENT GONE PAYING OFF THE BALANCE OF THE MORTGAGE AFTER 150.000,         HAD NO LUCK FINDING NEW WORK BECAUSE OF THE CRISIS AND THOUSANDS LET GO BECAUSE OF COMPANY CLOSURES NORTEL, DELL,  R SHORT PILLOW IS REALLY UNDER CRUNCH,  MAINTENANCE STILL HAS TO BE DONE AT BOTH PLACES,  CUT GRASS ONCE A MONTH IT GOT  WAIST HIGH   3 FT FIELD GRASS -  HAD NO TIME TO GO ANYMORE EVENTUALLY SINCE 4-DAYS JUST TO CUT OUR NEW GRASS,  I WAS BEYOND THE CALL OF DUTY IN WORK QUANTITY, ONDAYS WHERE VISITS WERE SCHEDULED I DID MOW THE GRASS INFRONT TO MAKE THE CLEANISH FIRST IMPRESSION. 

WE WERE STILL MOVING STUFF OUT OF 11 LLOYD RIGHT INTO END OF FALL EARLY WINTER, IT WAS UNBELIABLE HOW MUCH STUFF WAS STILL LEFT.

 ALL THE SCRAP WOOD FROM THE OLD DECK HAD TO BE PILED UP IN THE REAR CORNER NEAR THE PLAY PARK.

IT TOOK ME 3 WEEKS AT 3 DIFFERENT ATTEMPTS OF OVER 3 HOURS EACH THIS EXTREMELY HEAVY WORK WITH SUPER LONG BEAMS OF OLD WOOD HAD TO BE PICKED UP ON TOP OF MY SHOULDERS, BALANCE CAREFULLY AND RUN FOR IT SEVERAL HUNDRED FEET TO THE BACK THE YARD BEFORE MY STRENGTH GAVE OUT.  

AND FOR THE FINAL EFFORT I HAD SPEEDILY AIM THE ENTIRE 16FT LENGTH OF SUPER HEAVY OFF BALANCED FULL OF OLD RUSTED NAILS LOOKED LIKE SUPERMAN THROWING GIANT ELECTRICAL POLES LIKE A JAVELIN THROW IN OLYMPIC EVENT, THIS WAS IMPOSSIBLY INCONSPICUOUS IN LENGTH, WEIGHT, AND HAD TO CAREFULLY MAKE SURE THAT I DIND’T OVERTHROW AND LAND THE GIANT POLE ON TOP THE FENCE CAUSE IF IT WAS, THE ENTIRE FENCE WAS COLLAPSING!   ANOTHER JOB I ABSOLUTELY NO TIME LEFT TO DO.  

 I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I MANAGED TO GET THE STRENGTH TO START LIFTING SO MANY LONG AND HEAVY WOOD POLES BUT EXTREME JOBS CALL FOR EXTREME MEASURES!

I WAS POSITIVELY SURPRISED AT HAVING THE STRENGTH TO GET THAT IMPOSSIBLE ONE-MAN JOB  THIS KIND OF STUFF NEEDS 2 STRONG GUYS TO LIFT BOTH SIDES AND RUN TO THE BACK AND DROP THEM!

THIS BRINGS UP A VERY SIMILAR COMPARISON, THE TIME THE GRINCH ENDS UP ON TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN WITH HIS SLED ABOUT TO SLIP AND FALL DOWN THE HILL WITH THE ENTIRE LOAD OF STUFF ON THE SLED, THE SLED WAS BEGGINING TO CRUNCH THE SNOW UNDER ITS WEIGHT,  IT WAS DRAGGING THE GRINCH WHO WAS TRYING WITH ALL HIS MIGHT TO HOLD THE IMPOSSIBLY OVERSIZED SLED,  AND RIGHT THERE AND THEN WHEN HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FLYING FULL SPEED DOWN  THE MOUNTAIN THE NEXT MOMENT OUR GRINCH RECEIVED AN UNBELIEVABLE BUT  TRUE AN INSTANT BLAST OF STRENGHT OF 20 GRINCHES AND 2 , ALL OF A SUDDEN WE HAVE THE STRENGTH TO MOVE MOUNTAINS! 

I REALLY REALIZE THAT ON SPECIAL DAYS WHEN WE HAVE NO ONE TO HELP US GET THE SUPER-HARD AND HEAVY JOBS DONE WITH UNBELIAVABLE STRENGTH AND FEEL GREAT ABOUT IT AT THE END!!!

 

THE KIDS HELPED TO MOVE THE SMALLER WOOD PIECES TO THE BACK INTO THE PLAY PARK THAT HAD A ROOF AND MAD EXCELLENT WINTER WOOD STORAGE!

OUR NEW PLACE FEATURES,

 WITH A 1 ACRE BACKYARD WITH 4 CENTENNIAL TREES.

AND CEDAR HEDGE ROW REACHING FOR THE SKY A DREAM RETREAT FOR ANYONE !

ADMIRATION FOR THIS SANCTUARY QUALITY PLACE IN A BETTER BUILT BRICK HOME SUITABLE FOR LIVING ALL YEAR ROUND.  BEST PLACE TO LIVE IN ALL OF OTTAWA!

ONLY ISSUE GRASS  CUTTING TAKES 4 DAYS WEEKLY LAWN MOWER.

OH AND THE CENTENNIAL MAPLE TREES DROPPED A WHOPPING 50 GIANT LEAF BAGS FOR 4 PEOPLE WITH  LEAF BLOWERS, FINALLY THE NEXT SEASON, THE LEAVES WERE BLOWN RIGHT UP AGAINST THE BACK ROW OF CEDAR HEDGES.  LESS BAGGING BY 25 BAGS .  GREAT PLACE FOR PARTIES GET TOGETHERS THE PLACE IS LARGER THAN A PARK AND HAS ITS VERY OWN SNOW HILL TO SLIDE DOWN IN WINTER.

JOURNAL OF BRUNO THE GRINCH DOING FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 13 YRS.: GUESS EVERYONE?

DOING A GUIDED MEDITATION AND BEING BLOWN AWAY BY THE INTENSIVE FEELING THAT TOOK PLACE.
THIS TIME AFTER SUPPER LIGHT EATING, GOT OUT MY PORTABLE CD-PLATER, FOUND A MEDITATION CD FROM THE PATH OF LIGHT SPIRITUALITY BOOK THAT HELPED ME GET INTO MEDITATIONS AND SPIRITUALITY ALMOST 14 YRS. AGO.   
PUT ON THE CD ON AND HEADPHONES ,  SAT COMFORTABLY, CLOSED MY EYES AND ALREADY SO SURPRISED BY HOW EASILY I GOT BACK INTO IT!
An unknown healer appeared in my FIRST meditation in 13 years when I asked him his name and for the first time ever: I heard a NAME:  Raphael and then he flooded ME with HEALING energy!  I WAS BLOWN AWAY WITH THE FACT THAT WOW! WHAT AN INCREDIBLE FEELING , I SURPRISED MYSELF BY THE INTENSIVE FEELING OF REGENERATION TAKING PLACE!   I REALLY UNDERSTOOD THAT WHY DID EVER STOP MEDITATING?  I HEARD MYSELF SAY:  OH, HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED THE FEELING AND GETTING RIGHT BACK INTO MEDITATION AT A TIME OF EXTREME NEED IN MY LIFE!   
RESEARCHED ONLINE FOR RAPHAEL THE ARC-ANGEL AND FOUND OUT THIS IS THE NAME OF THE MASTER HEALER OF GOD.  AND NOW I REALIZE THAT I ACTUALLY SPOKE TO RAPHAEL HIMSELF AND AS IF WE WERE OLD FRIENDS GETTING TOGETHER AFTER SEVERAL YEARS OF NON-EXISTENT MEETINGS WITH SPIRITUAL HEALINGS!  I FEEL OVERWHELMED THAT THIS TOP-OF-THE-ARCHANGELS ACTUALLY SPOKE TO ME IN MY FIRST MEDITATION, AND THE INCREDIBLE SENSE OF REASSURANCE THAT CAME WITH THIS SPECIAL MEETING FOR ME!!! IT BECOMES AN UNFORGETTABLE PRIVILEDGE FOR LITTLE EMBARRASED ME SHOWING UP FOR A FIRST CONTACT WITH A MASTER HEALER IN HIS TRADE.  MAKES THE MOMENT FEEL REALLY IMPORTANT!
 AND FROM NOW ON I'LL HAVE TO REMEMBER TO GET A NAME THAT I CAN DOCUMENT IN MY JOURNAL, EVEN IF THE NAME IS UNFAMILAR BY NAME, BUT MOST SPIRITUAL ENTITIES USE JEWISH NAMES THAT ENDS IN "AEL"      
PIERRE LASSALLE, THE AUTHOR OF THE BOOK LONG TERM TESTIMONY IN HAVING REGULAR MEETINGS THROUGH REGULAR MEDITATION  WITH DIFFERENT ANGEL NAMES, NOTED BY THEIR JEWISH NAME ENDING IN "AEL" AND HAS HAD THE PRIVILEDGE TO  SHARE REGULAR INSPIRING TALKS WITH JESUS HIMSELF IN THE SPIRITUAL PLANE. WOW, THAT'S REALLY AMAZING!!!  500% TRUE!!!  WHO BETTER THAN JESUS TO GIVE A HELPING HAND TO MY PRESENTLY EMBARRASED LIFE!  IN ACCEPTING MYSELF FOR WHO I AM  AND CHANNEL YOUR GIFT TO TELL STORIES THAT INSPIRE FROM THE HEART!!!
NOW THAT I'VE UNCOVERED EFFECTIVE TECHNIQUES ON HOW TO USE GUIDED MEDITIATION TO GO BACK IN TIME AND LET ALL MY NEGATIVE EMOTIONS FROM MY FIRST 10 YRS. CHILDHOOD, DEEP MEDITATION AND SPECIFIC REQUESTS TO REVEAL PROBLEM POINTS IN MY LIFE WHERE THINGS WERE CAUSING EMOTIONAL BLOCKS PREVENTING ME FROM EVER BEING MYSELF!
CHOOSE A TIME IN MY PAST, TAKE CONSCIENCE OF THE NEGATIVE SITUATION FIRST.  LET THE FEELING BE EXPOSED.  LET GO OF THE EMOTION, FEEL IT DEPART YOUR BEING. AND FINALLY REPLACE THE BAD FEELING WITH A BURST OF POSITIVE LOVE, HAPPINESS, JOY, OR FAVORITE COLOR, OR EVEN LIGHT!
I CANT WAIT TO TOMORROW MEDITATION SESSION , I'VE ALREADY MISSED OUT ON TOO MANY YEARS!
A RENOVATION UNDERWAY BRUNO THE GRINCH STORY,
GOING TO MEDITATE MYSELF TO SLEEP!  ISN'T THAT GREAT? LET FOCUS ON GETTING LIFE TRANSFORMING DREAMS  !!!
I LOVE LIFE
BRUNO          
  

A SWIM GONE BAD BRUNO FIGHTS TO SWIM BACK BUT DROWNS!

The Mermaid TRIES TO GRAB BRUNO IN A HUG, BUT WITHOUT SIGNS OF LIFE, A DEAD BODY SINKS HEAVILY.  THS  DIDN'T WORK UNFORTUNATELY.  FINALLY,  SHE GRABBED Bruno's hand  and wth all her might, she managed to keep Bruno from sinking further!   

The Mermaid PULLS Bruno's Hand as hard as she can, and dolphin helps out also!! Hurry everyone! someone get him some magical gills so he can breathe again!! dolphin speeds immediately at some weeds and brings them back to mermaid. In no time the gills weeds finally Brings Bruno Back to Life!

Where Am I? and slowly he woke up on the beach, and just nearby, there was The Mermaid That Had Rescued Him, she came over and Lay down on top of Bruno to get  his warmth back after his long cold swim and She took care of him for the rest of the night!  She REALLY Cares for Bruno, Bruno is EXTACTIC to have found someone to care for! For the First time in His Life After Having Spent the most excluded childhood possible by having been put up for adoption. Being A Pisces an Avid Water lover, doing something enjoyable near the ocean!  Go swim with Dolphins and real mermaids!!!     

500% TRUE LIFE stories to print out and read A BIT EVERY TIME, FOOD FOR

500% TRUE LIFE stories to print out and read A BIT EVERY TIME, FOOD FOR
THOUGHT IS NEEDED!  IMAGINE THE SITUATION: HOW FAR CAN PROCRASTINATION AT
ITS WORST GO? READ ON AS IT STARTS OUT SMALL , AND GROWS SO FAST OUT OF
UNIMAGINABLE HAUNT YOU WORSE THAN YOUR GIANT MONSTER UNDER THE BED !!!
>>
>> HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING DOING REGULAR EASY AND SHORT
>> HOMEWORK?
     HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING TURNING IN ASSIGMENTS?  HOW LONG
ARE THOSE 4-6 WEEKS WORTH OF WORK.
  IS THE STRESS AND ANXIETY LEVEL AFTER CONTINUALLY HAVING TO FIND ANOTHER
>> EXCUSE FOR THE UNDONE HOMEWORKS?   I KEPT ON FOOLING THE TEACHER BY
>> TELLING HER THAT IT WAS ALREADY IN HER PILE YESTERDAY'S HOMEWORK SINCE
>> THAT BOUGHT ME TIME, AND NEXT CLASS SHE'D TELL ME THAT IT WAS EVEN TURNED
>> IN!! THEN OUT OF PATIENCE TIRED OF HAVING BEEN MISLED TO BEING STUPID.
>> SHE GAVE ME EXPELLED FROM CLASS PAPER FOR FAILURE TO TURN IN ASSIGNEMNTS
>> COMPLETELY.
      THIS WAS ONLY THE BEGINNING!!!

>>
>> MY TO DO LIST LONG OVERDUE  PROJECTS:
>>> A MICROWAVE SHELF, 2-WEEKS INCOMPLETE HOME WORK 3 WEEKS BEHIND FOR LOW
>>> SELF ESTIME CLASS.
>> CATCHING UP FROM HOME WORK GIVEN OVER 3 WEEKS AGO, AND THE 2 WEEKS AGO
>> HOMEWORK STILL NEEDING TO BE DONE IN ORDER AFTER THE INITIAL ONE WAS
>> INCOMPLETE.  IT'S QUITE OVELOADED HOMEWORK WHEN YOU HAVE TO GO BACK 4
>> WEEKS JUST TO GET THE REST OF THE WORK IN CORRECT ORDER TO FINALLY
>> COMLETE THE FUNCTIONAL FINAL ONE.   GEE I'M SOO-BEHIND!!!
I'M SO HOPELESS IN WRITING TOO SLOW, SO SHAKY I GET DIZZY SEVERAL TIMES
UNABLE TO READ MY OWN WRITING.
MY ONLY WAY OUT IS TO TYPE MY STORIES ON THE COMPUTER AND THEN PRINT THEM
OUT.
>
>>> I'm also quite busy LAST week, and STILL BEHIND 2 WKS FOR COMPLETING A
>>> MICROWAVE SHELF since I'm in REHAB 2 days a week for the next 12-18
>>> months every WED and THU to learn SOCIAL SKILLS and REBUILDING CHRONIC
>>> LOW SELF-ESTIME.   These LIFELONG issues have made me chronically SHY
>>> and FAIL TO FIT IN ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE, WORK, FAILED SCHOOL, was
>>> chronically bullied, THREATENED  non-stop, terrorizing anxiety because I
>>> was UNABLE TO COMPLETE ALL MY HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENTS. I got permanent
>>> DETENTIONS AFTER SCHOOL  and with school ending at  5:45PM I had to stay
>>> on until 7:00PM. My parents gave me real issues when I was coming home
>>> THAT LATE!! and sure enough:   there's NO WAY that I could ever tell my
>>> parents what was going on!
>>>
>>> The failure to turn in important assignments got SO BAD that I started
>>> skipping classes when there was assignments to turn in!  Teachers
>>> eventually gave me a DISASTER NOTE TO NOTIFY MY PARENTS AND SIGN, OF YET
>>> UNTOLD the chronic homework/assignments and failing attendance. This
>>> NOTE was a DISCIPLINARY NOTE FOR SERIOUS OFFENCES, 3 STRIKES AND YOU'RE
>>> EXPELLED FROM SCHOOL PERMANENTLY
>>>
>>> EACH TEACHER OF ALL DIFFERENT CLASSES MATH, FRENCH, ENGLISH, GEOGRAPHY,
>>> GYM, WOULD ALSO SUBMIT THESE DISCIPLINARY PAPERS THAT WENT ON YOUR FILE
>>> AND IN THE SAME WEEK I RECEIVED ONE FOR EVERY DIFFERENT TEACHER FOR
>>> FAILED TO SUBMIT ASSIGNMENTS, AND NOT GOING TO CLASS ON PURPOSE TO AVOID
>>> FURTHER EXPULSIONS FROM CLASS.  THIS HAD DEGENERATED INTO MULTIPLE
>>> TERRORIZING MAJOR AVOIDANCES EVER !!!
>>>
>>> NEEDLESS TO SAY,  MY YEAR IN NOTRE-DAME WAS BEYOND ANYTHING THAT ANY
>>> NORMAL KID WOULD EVER IMAGINE AT ANY RATE! THE PRINCIPAL WAS GETTING AT
>>> LEAST 3-5 EXPELLED FROM CLASS EVERY WEEK FOR NUMEROUS SKIPPED CLASSES ON
>>> PURPOSE TO AVOID NOT HANDING IN MY HOMEWORK.   KIDS IN HIGH SCHOOL HAVE
>>> TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS, AND ORGANIZED HOMEWORK TIMES.
>>
>>> And now,  just looking back at all this disastrous school problems, and
>>> the pattern of a kid with Attention -Deficit- Hyperactive -Disorder and
>>> Autism,
>>> the first thing these kids have COMPLETE LACK OF organization, No sense
>>> of time for every task that I was given, be at home chores, chronically
>>> found a way to put off  everything that i had been in charge of doing.
>>> CHRONIC PROCRASTINATION, FROM PIANO PRACTICE, TO CUTTING THE GRASS, WASH
>>> THE CAR, PAINT THE FRONT DOOR, TOTAL LACK OF SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITIES,
>>> EVEN MORE THAN EVER, "LATER, TOMORROW," TERRIFIED WHEN OUT OF TIME
>>> DEADLINES WERE NEVER LONG ENOUGH!  TIME FLEW WHEN I WAS CONSISITENTLY
>>> PUTTING OFF IMPORTANT CHORES AND
>>> I DREADED HAVING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL OF WHEN TIME WAS UP THE TEACHER
>>> FOUND OUT THAT I DID NOT DO ANY HOMEWORK, PRACTICE WHATSOEVER.  ALL
>>> HOMEWORK COMPLETELY UNDONE!  MORE ZEROES ON MY REPORT CARDS!!! MORE
>>> EXPELLED FROM CLASS BY THE HUNDREDS BY THE TIME THE YEAR FINALLY CAME TO
>>> A FURTHER IMPOSSIBLE EXAMS WEEK, THEATENEND BY A PACK HIGHSCHOOL 5
>>> BULLIES WAITING FOR ME OUTSIDE TO GET A INTIMIDATING BEATING ONCE EXAMS
>>> ENDED! AND GUESS WHAT?  I NEEDED TO GET OUT FIRST BEFORE THEY DID!!!
>>> TRIED TO HURRY THE EXAM A MULTIPLE CHOICE AND I OPTED TO FILL ALL THE
>>> QUESTIONS WITH RANDOM ANWSERS, TURNED IN MY ANSWER SHEET, AND
>>> SUCCESSFULLY AVOIDED THE CONFONTATION THAT WOULD HAVE LEFT ME BLEEDING!
>>> THIS THREAT TO ME WAS A CRUCIAL DECIDING FACTOR IN ELECTING TO HAVE
>>> FAILED EXAM RESULT.
>>> I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN TO HAVE FACE THE FACT OF TELL MY PARENTS THAT I
>>> WAS IN DEEP TROUBLE AT SCHOOL.
>>>
>>> MY DAD WAS USUALLY IMPATIENT SHORT TEMPERED, KEPT ON PUTTING ME DOWN
>>> WITH VERY BELITTLING WORDS, YOU'RE SMARTER THAN THAT,  GOOD FOR NOTHING.
>>> NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT WAS THE PROBLEM  WITH ME.
>>>
>>> BACK THEN, THERE WAS NO REHAB, NO MENTAL HOSPITAL TO GO TO WHEN THINGS
>>> WERE BAD!  THERE WERE NO SPECIAL SCHOOLS KIDS WITH MENTAL DISABILITIES
>>> COULD GO TO IN A BETTER LEARNING ENVIRONMENT SPECIALLY SUITED FOR KIDS
>>> WITH AUTISM, ADHD, CHILDHOOD BIPOLAR, CHRONIC DEPRESSION, IMPOSSIBLY
>>> DIFFICULT LEARNING LIKE I HAD, WITH COMPLETE INABILITY TO DO ANY KIND OF
>>> PRACTICE, EVERY KIND OF SMALL TASKS, OR MORE IMPORTANT TASKS, THIS IS
>>> TRULY A VERY LIMITING RESTRICTION, NOT TO BE ABLE TO DO REGULAR WORK
>>> AROUND THE HOUSE, OR AT WORK, AND QUITE RESTRICTINGLY AT SCHOOL WHERE
>>> REGULAR HOME WORK IS CRUCIAL FOR THE CORRECT LEARNING OF EVERY TOPIC.
>>> TODAY, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I'M DEFINITELY REALIZING THAT ALL MY
>>> CHRONIC PROBLEMS IN SCHOOL, WORK, AND IN LIFE, HAS NOW FOUND A COMMON
>>> REASON, AFTER AN ENTIRE LIFETIME OF FAILED EXPECTATIONS TO MYSELF AND
>>> EVERYONE THAT HAD BEEN DISAPPOINTED TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
>>>
>>> PROCRASTINATION IS MY WORST ENEMY AND MY EVERYDAY NIGHTMARE!
>>>
>>> HOW WILL I TACKE THE MOST STUBBORN PROBLEM FOR ME AND EVERYONE WHO'SE
>>> LOST FAITH AND TRUST IN ME LONG TIME AGO?
>>>
>>> THIS IS QUITE SERIOUS ISSUE THAT I FACE TODAY.   I HAVE TO GO FINISH  MY
>>> MOM'S MICROWAVE SHELF, IT'S CLOSE TO 2 WEEKS IT GOT STARTED, NOT
>>> FINISHED YET, SCARED THAT IT WILL NOT FIT AFTER I CAREFULLY NEED TO
>>> LOCATE 4 HOLES WHERE 4 WOOD STUDS WILLL INIVISIBLY BOX IN ON THE NEW
>>> SHELF AN THE OLD ONE!
>> GUESS WHAT:  MONDAY FINALLY FINISHED THAT SHELF AND TOURNED OUT EASIER
>> THAN I EVER ANTICIPATED.
>>>
>>> I ALSO NEED TO GO TO A SPECIAL OFFICE FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE SICK CAN'T
>>> WORK (GENESIS, CREATION OF LIFE)
>>   YOU WON'T BELIEVE THIS,  MONDAY AFTERNOON I FINALLY GOT THE IMPOSSIBLE
>> COURAGE AND GUTS TO GO TO  GENESIS AFTER MONTHS OF  FURTHER AVOIDANCE OF
>> EVERY EXCUSE IN THE BOOK  CANT' COME UP WITH ENOUGH EXCUSES ANYMORE!
>> THIS WAS EXTREMELY CHALLENGING FOR ME SINCE AFTER THE INITIAL CHECK-IN
>> YOU WERE ASSIGNED TO A SPECIFIC HELP AGENT, AND  TOOK ONE AND HALF HOURS
>> OF WAIT BEFORE I WAS FINALLY INSIDE TALKING WITH A WONDERFUL VERY
>> RESOURCEFUL PERSON THAT IMMEDIATELY BEGAN ASSESSING OUR SITUATION FOR
>> WELFARE ASSISTANCE WITH SEPARATION,  OPEN MORGAGE, AND IN REHAB FOR LONG
>> TERM GAVE US ALL THE RELEVANT FORMS TO FILL OUT AND HIGHLIGHTED THE
>> DOCUMENTS  THAT WERE NEEDED TO OPEN A FILE CORRECTLY: - SEPARATION
>> PAPERS - MORTGAGE STATEMENT - BIRTH CERTIFCATE - MEDICAL FORM FOR
>> DISABILITY REPORT MENTAL HEALTH TO BE GIVEN TO DR-MIRESKO NEXT WEEK NEXT
>> APPOINTMENT
>>> PETRIFIED ON COMING UP WITH A STORY THAT WILL MAKE ME
>>> ELIGIBLE TO RECEIVE TEMPORARY WELFARE ASSISTANCE EVEN THOUGH WE 'RE NOT
>>> ELIGIBLE TO GET IT BECAUSE OF OUR MORTGAGE!   I'M A TOTAL EMOTIONAL MESS
>>> ANXIETY LEVEL FREEZE ME UP FOR WORDS AND CLEAR THOUGHTS,  RIGHT WHEN I
>>> NEED TO TELL THE OTHER PERSON CURRENT SITUATION AND MY PROBLEM!
>>>
>>> THE ONLY WAY I'LL MANAGE  IS TO WRITE DOWN ON PAPER MY ITEMS THAT I KNOW
>>> I'LL HAVE TO READ THEM OUT TO THE AGENT WHO HELPS US.  MY ANXIETY LEVELS
>>> ARE AT VERY TERRORIZING LEVELS-  I SHAKE WORSE THAN EVER RIGHT WHEN I
>>> NEED TO CONVEY THE INFORMATION ALMOST CAN'T TALK CAN'T BREATHE,
>>> TERRIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE
>>>
>>> SORRY MY TIM'ES UP, NEED TO GET BACK TO MICROWAVE SHELF, ALTHOUGH I
>>> WOULD STILL FIND WAYS TO PUT IT OFF AGAIN !  WELCOME ABOARD TO MORE
>>> CHRONIC PROCRASTINATIONS!
>>>
>>> Have great day and read, DON'T EVEN THINK OF PUTTING OFF: SECONDS,
>>> MINUTES, HOURS, DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, SEASONS, ENTIRE SCHOOL YEARS, JUST
>>> TO CATCH UP WITH  THE WORLD BIGGEST NIGHTMARE ON YOUR HANDS BECAUSE WHEN
>>> THE DAY OF RECONING COMES AROUND,   NO AMOUNT OF AVOIDANCE WILL GET YOU
>>> THROUGH!
>>> THE GOOD NEWS IS:  THERE IS AN EASY WAY TO PUT AWAY AVOIDANCE, FOR GOOD,
>>> WITH COURAGE, FAITH IN YOURSELF, AND OH I AMOST FORGOT:  IT'S A SUPER
>>> HAPPY FEELING, EACH TIME YOU CHALLENGE THESE BAD HABITS, AND THE MORE
>>> BAD THINGS ON YOUR LIST OF THE PAST, YOU'RE GOING TO ENJOY MULTIPLE
>>> HAPPY FEELINGS ENOUGH TO GIVE A NEW AND FUN REASON TO CHANGE FOR THE
>>> BETTER! THIS SURE BEATS PLAYING THE AVOIDANCE GAME WITH YOURSELF AND
>>> PEOPLE WHO CARE.
>>
>>> HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I'M HAVING!!!!
>>>
>>> SAY HI  AND FEEL FREE TO SHARE ALL THESE UNBELIEVABLE UNCONVENTIONAL
>>> 500% TRUE STORIES THAT I GENUINELY HAD TO KICK MYSELF THROUGH!!!
>>> TALK TO YOU AGAIN, WHEN I HAVE A MOMENT TO SPARE 5 PAGES OF IMPOSSIBLY
>>> TRUE STORIES FILLED WITH GENUINE FEAR,  STRESS ANXIETY ATTACKS BY THE
>>> MILLIONS!
>>>
>>> Sorry for the upper case it's easier to read if you print these stories
>>> out and read through them!
>>> no, they're not loud stories or angry, just easy to read format.
>>>
>>
>>
>>
>>> Bruno A HOPELESS CASE DRIVEN HOPEFUL UNEXPECTDLY SURPRISED!  CAN'T WAIT
>>> TO FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!

PS. I'M STILL STRUGGLING WITH GETIING MY HOMEWORK DONE AT ALL, BUT LET'S
FIND A POSITIVE NEW WAY TO BEGIN IMPROVING FUNCTIONALITY  FOR CHORES AND
HOMEWORK.
>>
>
>

DOOMED IN NOT RETURNING HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENTS

HOW FAR CAN PROCRASTINATION AT ITS WORST GO? READ ON AS IT STARTS OUT SMALL
AND CUTE, AND GROWS SO FAST OUT OF UNIMAGINABLE HAUTING PROPORTIONS!!!

HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING DOING REGULAR EASY AND SHORT HOMEWORK TO
GET INTO THE SCHOOL CURRICULUM? HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING TURNING
IN ASSIGMENTS?  HOW LONG ARE THOSE 4-6 WEEKS WORTH OF WORK.  IS THE STRESS
AND ANXIETY LEVEL AFTER CONTINUALLY HAVING TO FIND ANOTHER EXCUSE FOR THE
UNDONE HOMEWORKS?   I KEPT ON FOOLING THE TEACHER BY TELLING HER THAT IT WAS
ALREADY IN HER PILE YESTERDAY'S HOMEWORK SINCE THAT BOUGHT ME TIME, AND NEXT
CLASS SHE'D TELL ME THAT IT WAS EVEN TURNED IN!! THEN OUT OF PATIENCE TIRED
OF HAVING BEEN MISLED TO BEING STUPID.  SHE GAVE ME ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE
EXPELLED FROM CLASS PAPERS.

MY TO DO LIST LONG OVERDUE  PROJECTS:
> A MICROWAVE SHELF, 2-WEEKS INCOMPLETE HOME WORK 3 WEEKS BEHIND FOR LOW
> SELF ESTIME CLASS.
CATCHING UP FROM HOME WORK GIVEN OVER 3 WEEKS AGO, AN THE 2 WEEKS AGO
HOMEWORK STILL NEEDING TO BE DONE IN ORDER AFTER THE INITIAL ONE WAS
INCOMPLETE.  IT'S QUITE OVELOADED HOMEWORK WHEN YOU HAVE TO GO BACK 4 WEEKS
JUST TO GET THE REST OF THE WORK IN CORRECT ORDER TO FINALLY COMLETE THE
FUNCTIONAL FINAL ONE.   GEE I'M SOO-BEHIND!!!

> I'm also quite busy this week, and STILL BEHIND 2 WKS FOR COMPLETING A
> MICROWAVE SHELF since I'm in REHAB 2 days a week for the next 12-18 months
> every WED and THU to learn SOCIAL SKILLS and REBUILDING CHRONIC LOW
> SELF-ESTIME.   These LIFELONG issues have made me chronically SHY and FAIL
> TO FIT IN ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE, WORK, FAILED SCHOOL, was chronically
> bullied, THREATENED  non-stop, terrorizing anxiety because I was UNABLE TO
> COMPLETE ALL MY HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENTS. I got permanent DETENTIONS AFTER
> SCHOOL  and with school ending at  5:45PM I had to stay on until 7:00PM.
> My parents gave me real issues when I was coming home THAT LATE!! and sure
> enough
   there's NO WAY that I could ever tell my parents what was going on!
>
> The failure to turn in important assignments got SO BAD that I started
> skipping classes when there was assignments to turn in!  Teachers
> eventually gave me a DISASTER NOTE TO NOTIFY MY PARENTS AND SIGN, OF YET
> UNTOLD the chronic homework/assignments and failing attendance. This NOTE
> was a DISCIPLINARY NOTE FOR SERIOUS OFFENCES, 3 STRIKES AND YOU'RE
> EXPELLED FROM SCHOOL PERMANENTLY
>
> EACH TEACHER OF ALL DIFFERENT CLASSES MATH, FRENCH, ENGLISH, GEOGRAPHY,
> GYM, WOULD ALSO SUBMIT THESE DISCIPLINARY PAPERS THAT WENT ON YOUR FILE
> AND IN THE SAME WEEK I RECEIVED ONE FOR EVERY DIFFERENT TEACHER FOR FAILED
> TO SUBMIT ASSIGNMENTS, AND NOT GOING TO CLASS ON PURPOSE TO AVOID FURTHER
> EXPULSIONS FROM CLASS.  THIS HAD DEGENERATED INTO MULTIPLE TERRORIZING
> MAJOR AVOIDANCES EVER !!!
>
> NEEDLESS TO SAY,  MY YEAR IN NOTRE-DAME WAS BEYOND ANYTHING THAT ANY
> NORMAL KID WOULD EVER IMAGINE AT ANY RATE! THE PRINCIPAL WAS GETTING AT
> LEAST 3-5 EXPELLED FROM CLASS EVERY WEEK FOR NUMEROUS SKIPPED CLASSES ON
> PURPOSE TO AVOID NOT HANDING IN MY HOMEWORK.   KIDS IN HIGH SCHOOL HAVE
> TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS, AND ORGANIZED HOMEWORK TIMES.

> And now,  just looking back at all this disastrous school problems, and
> the pattern of a kid with Attention -Deficit- Hyperactive -Disorder and
> Autism,
> the first thing these kids have COMPLETE LACK OF organization, No sense of
> time for every task that I was given, be at home chores, chronically found
> a way to put off  everything that i had been in charge of doing.  CHRONIC
> PROCRASTINATION, FROM PIANO PRACTICE, TO CUTTING THE GRASS, WASH THE CAR,
> PAINT THE FRONT DOOR, TOTAL LACK OF SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITIES, EVEN MORE
> THAN EVER, "LATER, TOMORROW," TERRIFIED WHEN OUT OF TIME  DEADLINES WERE
> NEVER LONG ENOUGH!  TIME FLEW WHEN I WAS CONSISITENTLY PUTTING OFF
> IMPORTANT CHORES AND
> I DREADED HAVING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL OF WHEN TIME WAS UP THE TEACHER
> FOUND OUT THAT I DID NOT DO ANY HOMEWORK, PRACTICE WHATSOEVER.  ALL
> HOMEWORK COMPLETELY UNDONE!  MORE ZEROES ON MY REPORT CARDS!!! MORE
> EXPELLED FROM CLASS BY THE HUNDREDS BY THE TIME THE YEAR FINALLY CAME TO A
> FURTHER IMPOSSIBLE EXAMS WEEK, THEATENEND BY A PACK HIGHSCHOOL 5 BULLIES
> WAITING FOR ME OUTSIDE TO GET A INTIMIDATING BEATING ONCE EXAMS ENDED!
> AND GUESS WHAT?  I NEEDED TO GET OUT FIRST BEFORE THEY DID!!!   TRIED TO
> HURRY THE EXAM A MULTIPLE CHOICE AND I OPTED TO FILL ALL THE QUESTIONS
> WITH RANDOM ANWSERS, TURNED IN MY ANSWER SHEET, AND SUCCESSFULLY AVOIDED
> THE CONFONTATION THAT WOULD HAVE LEFT ME BLEEDING!  THIS THREAT TO ME WAS
> A CRUCIAL DECIDING FACTOR IN ELECTING TO HAVE FAILED EXAM RESULT.
> I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN TO HAVE FACE THE FACT OF TELL MY PARENTS THAT I
> WAS IN DEEP TROUBLE AT SCHOOL.
>
> MY DAD WAS USUALLY IMPATIENT SHORT TEMPERED, KEPT ON PUTTING ME DOWN WITH
> VERY BELITTLING WORDS, YOU'RE SMARTER THAN THAT,  GOOD FOR NOTHING.  NOT
> UNDERSTANDING WHAT WAS THE PROBLEM  WITH ME.
>
> BACK THEN, THERE WAS NO REHAB NO MENTAL HOSPITAL TO GO TO WHEN THINGS WERE
> BAD!
>
> TODAY, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I'M DEFINITELY REALIZING THAT ALL MY
> CHRONIC PROBLEMS IN SCHOOL, WORK, AND IN LIFE, HAS NOW FOUND A COMMON
> REASON, AFTER AN ENTIRE LIFETIME OF FAILED EXPECTATIONS TO MYSELF AND
> EVERYONE THAT HAD TO DISAPPOINTED TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
>
> PROCRASTINATION IS MY WORST ENEMY AND MY EVERYDAY NIGHTMARE!
>
> HOW WILL I TACKE THE MOST STUBBORN PROBLEM FOR ME AND EVERYONE WHO'SE LOST
> FAITH AND TRUST IN ME LONG TIME AGO?
>
> THIS IS QUITE SERIOUS ISSUE THAT I FACE TODAY.   I HAVE TO DO FINISH  MY
> MOM'S MICROWAVE SHELF, IT'S CLOSE TO 2 WEEKS IT GOT STARTED, NOT FINISHED
> YET, SCARED THAT IT WILL NOT FIT AFTER I CAREFULLY NEED TO LOCATE 4 HOLES
> WHERE 4 WOOD STUDS WILLL INIVISIBLY BOX IN ON THE NEW SHELF AN THE OLD
> ONE!
 GUESS WHAT:  MONDAY FINALLY FINISHED THAT SHELF AND TOURNED OUT EASIER THAN
I EVER ANTICIPATED.
>
> I ALSO NEED TO GO TO A SPECIAL OFFICE FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE SICK CAN'T WORK
> (GENESIS, CREATION OF LIFE)
   YOU WON'T BELIEVE THIS,  MONDAY AFTERNOON I FINALLY GOT THE IMPOSSIBLE
COURAGE AND GUTS TO GO TO  GENESIS AFTER MONTHS OF  FURTHER AVOIDANCE OF
EVERY EXCUSE IN THE BOOK  CANT' COME UP WITH ENOUGH EXCUSES ANYMORE!  THIS
WAS EXTREMELY CHALLENGING FOR ME SINCE AFTER THE INITIAL CHECK-IN YOU WERE
ASSIGNED TO A SPECIFIC HELP AGENT, AND  TOOK ONE AND HALF HOURS OF WAIT
BEFORE i WAS FINALLY INSIDE TALKING WITH A WONDERFUL VERY RESOURCEFUL PERSON
THAT IMMEDIATELY BEGAN ASSESSING OUR SITUATION FOR WELFARE ASSISTANCE WITH
SEPARATION,  OPEN MORGAGE, AND IN REHAB FOR LONG TERM GAVE US ALL THE
RELEVANT FORMS TO FILL OUT AND HIGHLIGHTED THE DOCUMENTS  THAT WERE NEEDED
TO OPEN A FILE CORRECTLY: - SEPARATION PAPERS - MORTGAGE STATEMENT - BIRTH
CERTIFCATE - MEDICAL FORM FOR DISABILITY REPORT MENTAL HEALTH TO BE GIVEN TO
DR-MIRESKO NEXT WEEK NEXT APPOINTMENT
> PETRIFIED ON COMING UP WITH A STORY THAT WILL MAKE ME
> ELIGIBLE TO RECEIVE TEMPORARY WELFARE ASSISTANCE EVEN THOUGH WE 'RE NOT
> ELIGIBLE TO GET IT BECAUSE OF OUR MORTGAGE!   I'M A TOTAL EMOTIONAL MESS
> ANXIETY LEVEL THAT FREEZE ME UP,  RIGHT WHEN I NEED TO TELL THE OTHER
> PERSON CURRENT SITUATION AND MY PROBLEM!
>
> THE ONLY WAY i'LL MANAGE  IS TO WRITE DOWN ON PAPER MY ITEMS THAT I KNOW
> I'LL HAVE TO READ THEM OUT TO THE AGENT WHO HELPS US.  MY ANXIETY LEVELS
> ARE AT VERY TERRORIZING LEVELS-  I SHAKE WORSE THAN EVER RIGHT WHEN I NEED
> TO CONVEY THE INFORMATION ALMOST CAN'T TALK CAN'T BREATHE,  TERRIBLY
> UNCOMFORTABLE
>
> SORRY MY TIM'ES UP, NEED TO GET BACK TO MICROWAVE SHELF, ALTHOUGH I WOULD
> STILL FIND WAYS TO PUT IT OFF AGAIN !  WELCOME ABOARD TO MORE CHRONIC
> PROCRASTINATIONS!
>
> Have great day and read, DON'T EVEN THINK OF PUTTING OFF: SECONDS,
> MINUTES, HOURS, DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, SEASONS, ENTIRE SCHOOL YEARS, JUST TO
> CATCH UP WITH  THE WORLD BIGGEST NIGHTMARE ON YOUR HANDS BECAUSE WHEN THE
> DAY OF RECONING COMES AROUND,   NO AMOUNT OF AVOIDANCE WILL GET YOU
> THROUGH!
> THE GOOD NEWS IS:  THERE IS AN EASY WAY TO PUT AWAY AVOIDANCE, FOR GOOD,
> WITH COURAGE, FAITH IN YOURSELF, AND OH I AMOST FORGOT:  IT'S A SUPER
> HAPPY FEELING, EACH TIME YOU CHALLENGE THESE BAD HABITS, AND THE MORE BAD
> THINGS ON YOUR LIST OF THE PAST, YOU'RE GOING TO ENJOY MULTIPLE HAPPY
> FEELINGS ENOUGH TO GIVE A NEW AND FUN REASON TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!
> THIS SURE BEATS PLAYING THE AVOIDANCE GAME WITH YOURSELF AND PEOPLE WHO
> CARE.

> HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I'M HAVING!!!!
>
> SAY HI  AND FELL FREE TO SHARE ALL THESE UNBELIEVABLE UNCONVENTIONAL
> STORIES THAT I GENUINELY HAD TO KICK MYSELF THOUGH!!!
> TALK TO YOU AGAIN, WHEN I HAVE A MOMENT TO SPARE 5 PAGES OF IMPOSSIBLY
> TRUE STORIES FILLED WITH GENUINE FEAR,  STRESS ANXIETY ATTACKS BY THE
> MILLIONS!
>
> Sorry for the upper case it's easier to read if you print these stories
> out and read through them!
> no, they're not loud stories or angry, just easy to read format.
>



> Bruno