HOW FAR CAN PROCRASTINATION AT ITS WORST GO? READ ON AS IT STARTS OUT SMALL
AND CUTE, AND GROWS SO FAST OUT OF UNIMAGINABLE HAUTING PROPORTIONS!!!
HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING DOING REGULAR EASY AND SHORT HOMEWORK TO
GET INTO THE SCHOOL CURRICULUM? HOW LONG COULD YOU SURVIVE AVOIDING TURNING
IN ASSIGMENTS? HOW LONG ARE THOSE 4-6 WEEKS WORTH OF WORK. IS THE STRESS
AND ANXIETY LEVEL AFTER CONTINUALLY HAVING TO FIND ANOTHER EXCUSE FOR THE
UNDONE HOMEWORKS? I KEPT ON FOOLING THE TEACHER BY TELLING HER THAT IT WAS
ALREADY IN HER PILE YESTERDAY'S HOMEWORK SINCE THAT BOUGHT ME TIME, AND NEXT
CLASS SHE'D TELL ME THAT IT WAS EVEN TURNED IN!! THEN OUT OF PATIENCE TIRED
OF HAVING BEEN MISLED TO BEING STUPID. SHE GAVE ME ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE
EXPELLED FROM CLASS PAPERS.
MY TO DO LIST LONG OVERDUE PROJECTS:
> A MICROWAVE SHELF, 2-WEEKS INCOMPLETE HOME WORK 3 WEEKS BEHIND FOR LOW
> SELF ESTIME CLASS.
CATCHING UP FROM HOME WORK GIVEN OVER 3 WEEKS AGO, AN THE 2 WEEKS AGO
HOMEWORK STILL NEEDING TO BE DONE IN ORDER AFTER THE INITIAL ONE WAS
INCOMPLETE. IT'S QUITE OVELOADED HOMEWORK WHEN YOU HAVE TO GO BACK 4 WEEKS
JUST TO GET THE REST OF THE WORK IN CORRECT ORDER TO FINALLY COMLETE THE
FUNCTIONAL FINAL ONE. GEE I'M SOO-BEHIND!!!
> I'm also quite busy this week, and STILL BEHIND 2 WKS FOR COMPLETING A
> MICROWAVE SHELF since I'm in REHAB 2 days a week for the next 12-18 months
> every WED and THU to learn SOCIAL SKILLS and REBUILDING CHRONIC LOW
> SELF-ESTIME. These LIFELONG issues have made me chronically SHY and FAIL
> TO FIT IN ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE, WORK, FAILED SCHOOL, was chronically
> bullied, THREATENED non-stop, terrorizing anxiety because I was UNABLE TO
> COMPLETE ALL MY HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENTS. I got permanent DETENTIONS AFTER
> SCHOOL and with school ending at 5:45PM I had to stay on until 7:00PM.
> My parents gave me real issues when I was coming home THAT LATE!! and sure
> enough
there's NO WAY that I could ever tell my parents what was going on!
>
> The failure to turn in important assignments got SO BAD that I started
> skipping classes when there was assignments to turn in! Teachers
> eventually gave me a DISASTER NOTE TO NOTIFY MY PARENTS AND SIGN, OF YET
> UNTOLD the chronic homework/assignments and failing attendance. This NOTE
> was a DISCIPLINARY NOTE FOR SERIOUS OFFENCES, 3 STRIKES AND YOU'RE
> EXPELLED FROM SCHOOL PERMANENTLY
>
> EACH TEACHER OF ALL DIFFERENT CLASSES MATH, FRENCH, ENGLISH, GEOGRAPHY,
> GYM, WOULD ALSO SUBMIT THESE DISCIPLINARY PAPERS THAT WENT ON YOUR FILE
> AND IN THE SAME WEEK I RECEIVED ONE FOR EVERY DIFFERENT TEACHER FOR FAILED
> TO SUBMIT ASSIGNMENTS, AND NOT GOING TO CLASS ON PURPOSE TO AVOID FURTHER
> EXPULSIONS FROM CLASS. THIS HAD DEGENERATED INTO MULTIPLE TERRORIZING
> MAJOR AVOIDANCES EVER !!!
>
> NEEDLESS TO SAY, MY YEAR IN NOTRE-DAME WAS BEYOND ANYTHING THAT ANY
> NORMAL KID WOULD EVER IMAGINE AT ANY RATE! THE PRINCIPAL WAS GETTING AT
> LEAST 3-5 EXPELLED FROM CLASS EVERY WEEK FOR NUMEROUS SKIPPED CLASSES ON
> PURPOSE TO AVOID NOT HANDING IN MY HOMEWORK. KIDS IN HIGH SCHOOL HAVE
> TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS, AND ORGANIZED HOMEWORK TIMES.
> And now, just looking back at all this disastrous school problems, and
> the pattern of a kid with Attention -Deficit- Hyperactive -Disorder and
> Autism,
> the first thing these kids have COMPLETE LACK OF organization, No sense of
> time for every task that I was given, be at home chores, chronically found
> a way to put off everything that i had been in charge of doing. CHRONIC
> PROCRASTINATION, FROM PIANO PRACTICE, TO CUTTING THE GRASS, WASH THE CAR,
> PAINT THE FRONT DOOR, TOTAL LACK OF SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITIES, EVEN MORE
> THAN EVER, "LATER, TOMORROW," TERRIFIED WHEN OUT OF TIME DEADLINES WERE
> NEVER LONG ENOUGH! TIME FLEW WHEN I WAS CONSISITENTLY PUTTING OFF
> IMPORTANT CHORES AND
> I DREADED HAVING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL OF WHEN TIME WAS UP THE TEACHER
> FOUND OUT THAT I DID NOT DO ANY HOMEWORK, PRACTICE WHATSOEVER. ALL
> HOMEWORK COMPLETELY UNDONE! MORE ZEROES ON MY REPORT CARDS!!! MORE
> EXPELLED FROM CLASS BY THE HUNDREDS BY THE TIME THE YEAR FINALLY CAME TO A
> FURTHER IMPOSSIBLE EXAMS WEEK, THEATENEND BY A PACK HIGHSCHOOL 5 BULLIES
> WAITING FOR ME OUTSIDE TO GET A INTIMIDATING BEATING ONCE EXAMS ENDED!
> AND GUESS WHAT? I NEEDED TO GET OUT FIRST BEFORE THEY DID!!! TRIED TO
> HURRY THE EXAM A MULTIPLE CHOICE AND I OPTED TO FILL ALL THE QUESTIONS
> WITH RANDOM ANWSERS, TURNED IN MY ANSWER SHEET, AND SUCCESSFULLY AVOIDED
> THE CONFONTATION THAT WOULD HAVE LEFT ME BLEEDING! THIS THREAT TO ME WAS
> A CRUCIAL DECIDING FACTOR IN ELECTING TO HAVE FAILED EXAM RESULT.
> I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN TO HAVE FACE THE FACT OF TELL MY PARENTS THAT I
> WAS IN DEEP TROUBLE AT SCHOOL.
>
> MY DAD WAS USUALLY IMPATIENT SHORT TEMPERED, KEPT ON PUTTING ME DOWN WITH
> VERY BELITTLING WORDS, YOU'RE SMARTER THAN THAT, GOOD FOR NOTHING. NOT
> UNDERSTANDING WHAT WAS THE PROBLEM WITH ME.
>
> BACK THEN, THERE WAS NO REHAB NO MENTAL HOSPITAL TO GO TO WHEN THINGS WERE
> BAD!
>
> TODAY, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I'M DEFINITELY REALIZING THAT ALL MY
> CHRONIC PROBLEMS IN SCHOOL, WORK, AND IN LIFE, HAS NOW FOUND A COMMON
> REASON, AFTER AN ENTIRE LIFETIME OF FAILED EXPECTATIONS TO MYSELF AND
> EVERYONE THAT HAD TO DISAPPOINTED TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
>
> PROCRASTINATION IS MY WORST ENEMY AND MY EVERYDAY NIGHTMARE!
>
> HOW WILL I TACKE THE MOST STUBBORN PROBLEM FOR ME AND EVERYONE WHO'SE LOST
> FAITH AND TRUST IN ME LONG TIME AGO?
>
> THIS IS QUITE SERIOUS ISSUE THAT I FACE TODAY. I HAVE TO DO FINISH MY
> MOM'S MICROWAVE SHELF, IT'S CLOSE TO 2 WEEKS IT GOT STARTED, NOT FINISHED
> YET, SCARED THAT IT WILL NOT FIT AFTER I CAREFULLY NEED TO LOCATE 4 HOLES
> WHERE 4 WOOD STUDS WILLL INIVISIBLY BOX IN ON THE NEW SHELF AN THE OLD
> ONE!
GUESS WHAT: MONDAY FINALLY FINISHED THAT SHELF AND TOURNED OUT EASIER THAN
I EVER ANTICIPATED.
>
> I ALSO NEED TO GO TO A SPECIAL OFFICE FOR PEOPLE THAT ARE SICK CAN'T WORK
> (GENESIS, CREATION OF LIFE)
YOU WON'T BELIEVE THIS, MONDAY AFTERNOON I FINALLY GOT THE IMPOSSIBLE
COURAGE AND GUTS TO GO TO GENESIS AFTER MONTHS OF FURTHER AVOIDANCE OF
EVERY EXCUSE IN THE BOOK CANT' COME UP WITH ENOUGH EXCUSES ANYMORE! THIS
WAS EXTREMELY CHALLENGING FOR ME SINCE AFTER THE INITIAL CHECK-IN YOU WERE
ASSIGNED TO A SPECIFIC HELP AGENT, AND TOOK ONE AND HALF HOURS OF WAIT
BEFORE i WAS FINALLY INSIDE TALKING WITH A WONDERFUL VERY RESOURCEFUL PERSON
THAT IMMEDIATELY BEGAN ASSESSING OUR SITUATION FOR WELFARE ASSISTANCE WITH
SEPARATION, OPEN MORGAGE, AND IN REHAB FOR LONG TERM GAVE US ALL THE
RELEVANT FORMS TO FILL OUT AND HIGHLIGHTED THE DOCUMENTS THAT WERE NEEDED
TO OPEN A FILE CORRECTLY: - SEPARATION PAPERS - MORTGAGE STATEMENT - BIRTH
CERTIFCATE - MEDICAL FORM FOR DISABILITY REPORT MENTAL HEALTH TO BE GIVEN TO
DR-MIRESKO NEXT WEEK NEXT APPOINTMENT
> PETRIFIED ON COMING UP WITH A STORY THAT WILL MAKE ME
> ELIGIBLE TO RECEIVE TEMPORARY WELFARE ASSISTANCE EVEN THOUGH WE 'RE NOT
> ELIGIBLE TO GET IT BECAUSE OF OUR MORTGAGE! I'M A TOTAL EMOTIONAL MESS
> ANXIETY LEVEL THAT FREEZE ME UP, RIGHT WHEN I NEED TO TELL THE OTHER
> PERSON CURRENT SITUATION AND MY PROBLEM!
>
> THE ONLY WAY i'LL MANAGE IS TO WRITE DOWN ON PAPER MY ITEMS THAT I KNOW
> I'LL HAVE TO READ THEM OUT TO THE AGENT WHO HELPS US. MY ANXIETY LEVELS
> ARE AT VERY TERRORIZING LEVELS- I SHAKE WORSE THAN EVER RIGHT WHEN I NEED
> TO CONVEY THE INFORMATION ALMOST CAN'T TALK CAN'T BREATHE, TERRIBLY
> UNCOMFORTABLE
>
> SORRY MY TIM'ES UP, NEED TO GET BACK TO MICROWAVE SHELF, ALTHOUGH I WOULD
> STILL FIND WAYS TO PUT IT OFF AGAIN ! WELCOME ABOARD TO MORE CHRONIC
> PROCRASTINATIONS!
>
> Have great day and read, DON'T EVEN THINK OF PUTTING OFF: SECONDS,
> MINUTES, HOURS, DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, SEASONS, ENTIRE SCHOOL YEARS, JUST TO
> CATCH UP WITH THE WORLD BIGGEST NIGHTMARE ON YOUR HANDS BECAUSE WHEN THE
> DAY OF RECONING COMES AROUND, NO AMOUNT OF AVOIDANCE WILL GET YOU
> THROUGH!
> THE GOOD NEWS IS: THERE IS AN EASY WAY TO PUT AWAY AVOIDANCE, FOR GOOD,
> WITH COURAGE, FAITH IN YOURSELF, AND OH I AMOST FORGOT: IT'S A SUPER
> HAPPY FEELING, EACH TIME YOU CHALLENGE THESE BAD HABITS, AND THE MORE BAD
> THINGS ON YOUR LIST OF THE PAST, YOU'RE GOING TO ENJOY MULTIPLE HAPPY
> FEELINGS ENOUGH TO GIVE A NEW AND FUN REASON TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER!
> THIS SURE BEATS PLAYING THE AVOIDANCE GAME WITH YOURSELF AND PEOPLE WHO
> CARE.
> HAVE A BETTER DAY THAN I'M HAVING!!!!
>
> SAY HI AND FELL FREE TO SHARE ALL THESE UNBELIEVABLE UNCONVENTIONAL
> STORIES THAT I GENUINELY HAD TO KICK MYSELF THOUGH!!!
> TALK TO YOU AGAIN, WHEN I HAVE A MOMENT TO SPARE 5 PAGES OF IMPOSSIBLY
> TRUE STORIES FILLED WITH GENUINE FEAR, STRESS ANXIETY ATTACKS BY THE
> MILLIONS!
>
> Sorry for the upper case it's easier to read if you print these stories
> out and read through them!
> no, they're not loud stories or angry, just easy to read format.
>
> Bruno
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